TiMe

How are we really supposed to know when it's time to leave this earth? At any moment something unexpected can happen to you and totally change your life..whether it be good or bad. No matter how much you try to stay in control of what happens; life takes charge and shows you who's boss. So to speak. I have been given some sort of wake up call to live my life to the fullest and stop worrying and the little things that don't at all matter. Yesterday, we got a call that my grandma got into an accident. Immediately I started to think what was the last thing I spoke to her about..did I tell her "I love you" or just nag. How something as tramic as an accident needed to happen in order for me to take a look at how I live. I find I'm not the same happy person I used to be. What happened to my zest for life and love at I had for people. I have become a grumpy complainer who never thinks anything is good enough. Not able to say what I feel cause I'm scared of not being liked or "accepted" the heck with people! Living life to the fullest and being who I truly am are my new goals in life.

Losing for the Right Reasons

No matter what I do I like to do my best to be the best. Sometimes I get so caught up on that "goal" that I forget there is much more to life then winning. Taking my brother bowling helped tremendously in this area. Seeing him so hyped about his first time bowling...I couldn't resist his request to be on my team. We split it up turns by him getting the first shot and in return I got the left overs lol. Sadly we were on the side where there wasn't any guards to put up to help him make lots of points. Good thing is that he was able to make four points. woo hoo!! I got my booty kicked by my sister and her boyfriend but not to worry. It was worth the defeat to see that cute smile on his face the whole time we were there.

My Top Doggie Choices

Top 6 Dog Picks of 2009 by ME!

1. Husky-Meanly because they remind my of a wolve, and I can't really have one of those. Huskies are the next best thing. lol Plus that have very pretty eyes.

2. German Shepherd- Such cute dogs..and the pointy ears..enough said.

3. Labrador- Cuddly and cute..once again the pretty eyes get me.

4. Great Dane- HUGE dogs..almost big enough to call a horse lol..Just love their size.

5. Hound Dogs- There bark and ears are my fav.

6. Begals - The long ears and cute compackness of them

Letter Writing

I'm having a bit of fun writing letters...it does get a little costly but it's worth the money. Espacially if the person getting them is so worth the time and effort. It's another way of expressing onesself...something more then just words on paper. It shows that person that you actually took the time out of your day to think of them. Getting a letter in the mail just gives me some random and profound feeling. It sort of makes me feel important and loved. Having a boyfriend in the military really makes a person appreciate the little things that you get to do on a daily basis. I charish very time I get to speak to him or see him...This guy means alot to me..I know I'm falling hard for him.

My Artist Inside

For a good while I have been wanting to get back into drawing, painting, or anything to do with art really. I have been living without that fire that I used to have for things. One main thing in being art..something I'm very into. Somewhere in the middle of everything going on in my life things have just been done half way. That's not who I am and yet this past year I have been living just to get by not to the fullest. Time for a change!! I'm living for a new purpose cause I never know when I will pass away. It could be tomorrow or years from now. I don't want to say I wish I would have done this or that...time to put these thoughts into action and stop holding off on things. So, the other day while in the living room of my apartment I randomly wanted to make some kind of picture on Paint on the computer. I was trying to add it on here but it will not let me add a picture. Ha this past Friday I went to chili's and they have a fundraiser going on for cancer patients from St. Jude and you color a chili for a desired amount of money. Being that I'm a little short on money I was only able to donate $2 but I made sure I put lots of artistic value into that little chili. In the end I was very satisfied with what I did. Actually, I haven't been that proud of something in a very long time. Tells you how much I'm putting into my school work.

Home Sweet Home

I love being back in San Antonio. Life just seems so much more easy here lol. Maybe I'm just taking the easy way out of things buy coming home for the summer. Why not..lots of friends are home and I going to take a chance and see where life takes me. It may be great it may turn out in heartache. I never know. Life is full of decisions and sometimes you just have to make them no mater if its super hard to choose oooch. Hopefully I made some good choices.

The Garbage MAn!! ugh!

So, Monday morning I was on my way to taking my lil bro to day care when I noticed my left side view mirror was completely gone. and my car side swiped. Turns out the Garbage man did it and I had to file a report with the cops and the city. The man denied it when in fact it was him. I just don't even know what to write about this..it gets me angry lol